BEDA 26: REALLY OLD POEM (restored)

Untitled - but dedicated to the broken hearted ¢¾

Last night I thought of you again
Except this time the tears didn't rain
And it's all the same
I am done playing your game

I am sick of you lies
And the way you made me cry
I'm tired of the deceit
And craving you in my sheets

I no longer care if I ever "cater 2 u"
Or have to say "I do"
But I do feel "free at last"
And it surprisingly happened pretty fast

There's no "I" in team
But nor is there a "we
There certainly is a "me"
And I hope you can see

"If my friends could see me now"
My new motto is "live fast die young"
A life without animosity
And my only worry is staying "so sexy"

I don't know what you feared
But without you my path is cleared
It's smooth sailing from here
And I'm truly happy I'm not with you there.

For the first time in a long time
I feel like love is not a crime
It doesn't have hurt
And I too have worth

With sexy music blasting in my ears
I've never felt so beautiful- shaking my rear
We could have had fun
But you forced me to run

I want all my stuff back
Whole, and intact
I burned all your stuff
I had realized I'd had enough

Don't bother trying to kiss my ass
"This too shall pass"
Just accept your defeat
Cause honey I've got you beat

You had your chance
But we shared our last dance
I never knew it would be this good
Or that it ever could.

And now it's great.
I stay up late
And like someone who has found religion
I feel "saved"

I realize I shouldn't change for anyone but me
The haze has lifted and I see
I speak from the heart
And rarely know where to start

I am truly "witch baby"
Living in ecstasy
I am Arch Angel
I fought my way out of hell.

I wear my battle scars beautifully
And no longer feel the need for secrecy
I enjoy my truths
As the nutrients that helped me bloom

I suppose this is saying "good bye"
To you and a life of lies
My new soundtrack sounds glad
And the script is no longer sad

And as much as I hate to admit it
I learned a lot living through your shit
I've escaped your little "gallery"
And dug beneath the lies to find the real me

They say "don't regret anything
that ever made you smile"
And Im glad I never genuinely smiled
the whole while.
I hope the others escape you,

And that they are smart enough

to really see the truth.