BEDA 21: In Response

I'm sorry that
you haven't seen me lately
I know that
you've been worrying about me

"Where has she gone?"
I heard you say to your friends
As I was sitting across from you
And I wondered what you meant

But then I stopped in a mirror
To stare at my blank water eyes
Surrounded by dark shadows and lines
Haunted, disheveled, scared.

I don't know when this happened
But I think I know why
With no friends to catch me
I fell without knowing it

With no friends to keep me from breaking
No friends to provide understanding
I lost clarity and closed into myself
I am alone and terrified that this is my ending.